An Ideal Version of Self
Working through a self-help series she is requested to assimilate her deepest desire. At the very core of her intentions, what does she seek - who does she want to be?
Has that thought ever plagued you? Often we ask children, what do you want to be/do when you grow up - but as an adult approaching ‘mid-life’, I’m not sure I can answer that fully. It’s easier to reflect on where life has brought me, my choices, my decisions and where I currently am.
Promised Land
If you’re a person of faith, you may say that your life has unfolded exactly as it was intended. The journey is our experiences we have and the lessons we learn - that gets us from where we were to where we are going. Does the journey matter if you get to where you were intended to go? I would be remiss not to challenge that thought.
God intended for Moses to reach the Promised Land in 11-days. According to historical scholars, that is exactly long long the trip from Egypt should have taken but instead it took 40-years.
Knowing this I would ask you to think about your own circumstances. Perhaps you’re in a place in your life that you LOVE, and looking back you can see how the choices you made brought you through ‘some stuff’ filled with lessons that allowed you to arrive at the point you are now - but what if you could have bypassed some of that to end up here a lot faster? Wouldn’t it be more glorious to have enjoyed every moment in your life? Wouldn’t it be mroe satisfying to allow this season to last longer?
Vagrant Life
When we do not know what we want, we wander — to and fro — confused, waiting for something to HAPPEN to us.
Living life on the defensive is no way to LIVE. Waiting for a season in our life to make sense, to complete us, to fill us with joy — is not what God intended for us. The goal is to be filled with JOY every-day.
But what if I told you that was possible to get to your Promised Land a lot sooner. What if there was a way to curb your wandering — would you take it? Would you do whatever you could? Would you pass over the confusion and follow the path straight?
Elpis Hope
For years I’ve been steadfast on the Promise that help will come. Gods Merci would land on me and help me discover the shortcomings of my mind.
Last year I was approached by a woman, to whom I only knew by association of a casual acquaintance. She had reached out to invite me into an online group that she was investing her time into - and her work. Her Lifes work is all about helping humans overcome the emotional and mental conditions that arise from having gone through a traumatic event(s) which left residual issues in the mind. I had no expectations but had known about her ministry for some time. In this virtual new experience — I not only gained a tribe of strong and beautiful souls but, I also got to see elpis expanded in-real-life.
I found the Path Forward. It’s not something I could have found on my own — but alhamdulillah North Haven was there to provide support.
While I always knew that there was Trauma in my childhood past, I hadn’t realized the extent of how it was affecting my present.
Through a meticulous program of a lot of personal reflection and work- I’m well on my way to finding my Joy and becoming WHOLE.
(Update 1/2022) This last year has been so hard for me. So many changes in a relatively small amount of time. And while there are many days I fall victim to the darkness, I have been experiencing more days filled with Light; and that is how I see Elpis expanded in these hard days.
If you know of someone who is suffering through trauma or who is broken and wandering — I would implore you to reach out to North Haven. Or if you have a philanthropic spirit, please give so that others like me have a place to turn.
